This post isn’t filled with eloquent words.

It isn’t really thought out or well written.

It’s not earth shattering, but to this struggling servant’s heart this simple,foreign word shatters straight through the flesh.  It’s the spirit breaking out in thoughts (from my desk at 5AM).

So… I am thankful.

I am thankful You created me just because you wanted me.
I am thankful that when my anxiety kicks in You say “Have faith like a child”.
I am thankful You rescued my heart.
I am thankful when my flesh is weak You continuously pursue me.
I am thankful You are keeping me in this secret place for You and me. If I can’t rejoice in the stillness how would I praise You in a trial?
I am thankful You are patient with me.
I am thankful that while there is no outward evidence of my prayers that You are at work inwardly.  You are building a foundation.
I am thankful You use my desires to draw me close.
If and when the desires do come in the physical the only things people will be able to say is that I trusted You.  All glory goes to You.  Every good and perfect gift comes from above.
The world can’t understand the things of God nor do they want to. But when I get my miracles they will know of the power and might and goodness of my Jesus and the one my heart longs for.
My heart is Yours.
My life is Yours.

The life I thought I wanted wasn’t life at all. You are life and You are good.
This new life you planted for me is nothing like I had planned for myself, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world.  I have been planted and in the dark is the struggle to get to the light.  When the seed does sprout how miraculous and beautiful is that fruit.  The seed is in the dirt seeming invisible.  The hard work is beneath the surface preparing to be seen.

The adventure is trusting Your provision.  You love surprising your children.

Yesterday as I was praying God reminded me of people in the bible who took matters into their own hands because they got tired of waiting and it didn’t go well for them.

Thank You for adopting me
…and keeping me
…and loving me.
…and fighting for me.

3.5 years and counting.  Nothing could ever come close.

“BEHOLD, I WILL DO A NEW THING; NOW IT SHALL SPRING FORTH; SHALL YE NOT KNOW IT? I WILL EVEN MAKE A WAY IN THE WILDERNESS, AND RIVERS IN THE DESERT.” – ISAIAH 43:19

“NOW THANKS BE UNTO GOD, WHICH ALWAYS CAUSETH US TO TRIUMPH IN CHRIST, AND MAKETH MANIFEST THE SAVOUR OF HIS KNOWLEDGE BY US IN EVERY PLACE.  FOR WE ARE UNTO GOD A SWEET SAVOUR OF CHRIST, IN THEM THAT ARE SAVED, AND IN THEM THAT PERISH: TO THE ONE WE ARE THE SAVOUR OF DEATH UNTO DEATH; AND TO THE OTHER THE SAVOUR OF LIFE UNTO LIFE. AND WHO IS SUFFICIENT FOR THESE THINGS? FOR WE ARE NOT AS MANY, WHICH CORRUPT THE WORD OF GOD: BUT AS OF SINCERITY, BUT AS OF GOD, IN THE SIGHT OF GOD SPEAK WE IN CHRIST.” – 2 CORINTHIANS 2:14-17