I am thankful to be in shape enough again that when I get agitated I can burn off the anxiety instead of stewing over the apocalypse (Please come get me soon, Jesus!!!).

The last week was good…it was the first good week I’ve had in a while.  God is faithful.

A member had left me some food magazines and Crossword dictionary while I was off of work.  I didn’t know who it was from until I finally opened the dictionary in the beginning of the week and saw the signature.

It was just what I needed at just the right time.

One time I picked something up from her house and we ended up talking about Jesus for an hour.  My heart was so happy.

With that said there’s always something that has to get you, right?

I hate conflict.  I hate it.  I would rather get bulldozed again and again than to confront someone about a problem.

Until recently.

“HAVING THE UNDERSTANDING DARKENED, BEING ALIENATED FROM THE LIFE OF GOD THROUGH THE IGNORANCE THAT IS IN THEM, BECAUSE OF THE BLINDNESS OF THEIR HEART. WHO BEING PAST FEELING HAVE GIVEN THEMSELVES OVER UNTO LASCIVIOUSNESS, TO WORK ALL UNCLEANNESS WITH GREEDINESS.

BUT YE HAVE NOT SO LEARNED CHRIST; IF SO BE THAT YE HAVE HEARD HIM, AND HAVE BEEN TAUGHT BY HIM, AS THE TRUTH IS IN JESUS: THAT YE PUT OFF CONCERNING THE FORMER CONVERSATION THE OLD MAN, WHICH IS CORRUPT ACCORDING TO THE DECEITFUL LUSTS; AND BE RENEWED IN THE SPIRIT OF YOUR MIND; AND THAT YE PUT ON THE NEW MAN, WHICH AFTER GOD IS CREATED IN RIGHTEOUSNESS AND TRUE HOLINESS.” -EPHESIANS 4:18-24

God is working on my heart.  Circumstances are bringing all of my insecurities and impurities and emotions to the surface.  But, instead of running and/or being bulldozed I am learning to deal with them and stand up for myself in a Godly way.

It is not easy, you guys.

Anyway, while I was jogging this morning I was working out all of my angles and things I would say…justifiably of course…

As I’m making my way home God started taking over:

“I could tell them about themselves, too.”

Retaliation is what the world would do.  You are set apart.

“I was wronged!”

Weren’t you forgiven?

“But, they need to learn their lesson!!  I can be sarcastic right back!”

Have you learned your lesson?

“I’m tired of people walking all over me!”

This isn’t about them.  Let go of bitterness.

And then I was reminded of Ephesians 4.

“LET ALL BITTERNESS, AND WRATH, AND ANGER, AND CLAMOUR, AND EVIL SPEAKING, BE PUT AWAY FROM YOU, WITH ALL MALICE: AND BE YE KIND ONE TO ANOTHER, TENDERHEARTED, FORGIVING ONE ANOTHER, EVEN AS GOD FOR CHRIST’S SAKE HATH FORGIVEN YOU.”
-EPHESIANS 4:31-32

 

I don’t even care that she spelled my name wrong.  She is the only one who can. 😀

God is fighting for His children.

A close family friend sent me this song this week as well…

“Lately I’ve been winning battles left and right, but even winners can get wounded in the fight.
People say that I’m amazing.  I’m strong beyond my years.
But they don’t see inside of me I’m hiding all the tears.

They don’t know that I come running home when I fall down.
They don’t know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
‘Coz deep inside this armor the warrior is a child

Unafraid because His armor is the best, but even soldiers need a quiet place to rest.
People say that I’m amazing I never face retreat.
Oh no but they don’t see the enemies that lay me at His feet.”

The Warrior is a Child-Gary Valenciano

Live out those dreams. ❤ ❤ ❤

I am Simply Thankful.