And for my second post of the day…
Last night I knew I should’ve locked myself in my room and read my bible, but I was far too in my feelings and wallowing in self pity… I couldn’t pull myself up. I also felt too ashamed as if God would say, “You’re the one who left. I didn’t leave you.”
The last few weeks have been a steady decline and I had no fight left. But, God!
This morning I read what I should have last night and am better. HIS WORD is the only thing we have to overcome the schemes of the devil and he will get you to do everything BUT get in the word.
Below is a song I can’t stop listening to. I don’t know if it is a Christian song or not, but can be applied to Christ and is what my heart needed today.
A journey through the last few weeks of my life via blog posts:
Psalm 139… broken heart medicine
A Faith Failure: “Confess your sins one to another…”
When life is nothing like you planned and neither is Plan B…or C…
I will (not) show you my faith by my works…
“8 BUT THOU, ISRAEL, ART MY SERVANT, JACOB WHOM I HAVE CHOSEN, THE SEED OF ABRAHAM MY FRIEND.
9 THOU WHOM I HAVE TAKEN FROM THE ENDS OF THE EARTH, AND CALLED THEE FROM THE CHIEF MEN THEREOF, AND SAID UNTO THEE, THOU ART MY SERVANT; I HAVE CHOSEN THEE, AND NOT CAST THEE AWAY.
10 FEAR THOU NOT; FOR I AM WITH THEE: BE NOT DISMAYED; FOR I AM THY GOD: I WILL STRENGTHEN THEE; YEA, I WILL HELP THEE; YEA, I WILL UPHOLD THEE WITH THE RIGHT HAND OF MY RIGHTEOUSNESS
11 BEHOLD, ALL THEY THAT WERE INCENSED AGAINST THEE SHALL BE ASHAMED AND CONFOUNDED: THEY SHALL BE AS NOTHING; AND THEY THAT STRIVE WITH THEE SHALL PERISH.
12 THOU SHALT SEEK THEM, AND SHALT NOT FIND THEM, EVEN THEM THAT CONTENDED WITH THEE: THEY THAT WAR AGAINST THEE SHALL BE AS NOTHING, AND AS A THING OF NOUGHT.
13 FOR I THE LORD THY GOD WILL HOLD THY RIGHT HAND, SAYING UNTO THEE, FEAR NOT; I WILL HELP THEE.
14 FEAR NOT, THOU WORM JACOB, AND YE MEN OF ISRAEL; I WILL HELP THEE, SAITH THE LORD, AND THY REDEEMER, THE HOLY ONE OF ISRAEL.
15 BEHOLD, I WILL MAKE THEE A NEW SHARP THRESHING INSTRUMENT HAVING TEETH: THOU SHALT THRESH THE MOUNTAINS, AND BEAT THEM SMALL, AND SHALT MAKE THE HILLS AS CHAFF.
16 THOU SHALT FAN THEM, AND THE WIND SHALL CARRY THEM AWAY, AND THE WHIRLWIND SHALL SCATTER THEM: AND THOU SHALT REJOICE IN THE LORD, AND SHALT GLORY IN THE HOLY ONE OF ISRAEL.
17 WHEN THE POOR AND NEEDY SEEK WATER, AND THERE IS NONE, AND THEIR TONGUE FAILETH FOR THIRST, I THE LORD WILL HEAR THEM, I THE GOD OF ISRAEL WILL NOT FORSAKE THEM.
18 I WILL OPEN RIVERS IN HIGH PLACES, AND FOUNTAINS IN THE MIDST OF THE VALLEYS: I WILL MAKE THE WILDERNESS A POOL OF WATER, AND THE DRY LAND SPRINGS OF WATER.
19 I WILL PLANT IN THE WILDERNESS THE CEDAR, THE SHITTAH TREE, AND THE MYRTLE, AND THE OIL TREE; I WILL SET IN THE DESERT THE FIR TREE, AND THE PINE, AND THE BOX TREE TOGETHER:
20 THAT THEY MAY SEE, AND KNOW, AND CONSIDER, AND UNDERSTAND TOGETHER, THAT THE HAND OF THE LORD HATH DONE THIS, AND THE HOLY ONE OF ISRAEL HATH CREATED IT.” – ISAIAH 41
Skillet – Anchor YouTube Link <—Link
Lyrics:
Drifting beneath the horizon…
Body is weak but I’m trying to make it to shore, but I’m falling short.
I need You more…
Wave after wave, I’ve been sinking so unto Your promise I’m clinging.
You say that I’m strong, to You I belong.
Keep holding on… You are my anchor so steady me, steady me now.
You are my anchor.
You’re keeping my feet on the ground.
In angry oceans, You’ve never broken through
Every wave of the storm
You are my anchor
So steady me, steady me now
Come steady me, steady me now
You never left.
I can hear You calling me by name… Pulling me up from under my shame.
I’ll never be the same.
I can face anything, so let it rain.
You are my anchor so steady me, steady me now.
You are my anchor
You’re keeping my feet on the ground.
In angry oceans, You’ve never broken through every wave of the storm
You are my anchor
Don’t let go
I don’t wanna do this alone.
Don’t let go
I know that I’ll drown on my own.
So steady me, steady me now…
Come steady me, steady me now…
Beloved Oath of God 