Suddenly, a new desire was put on my heart about a month ago. I’ve been praying and trying to shake it, wondering if it was the flesh aching for change and grasping at straws. New starts can be crippling, at least for me, and I don’t have to make the decision for a few months.
I don’t like change or feeling out of control, but stepping out in faith means jumping off a cliff knowing He will catch you and lead you safely. I’m not ready to share the desire because I’m only wanting my heavenly Father’s guidance in this situation. I am still praying, but know that sometimes we go through things because God is building us for the next step. He is readying our hearts.
A few years ago I had the sudden desire to move to Colorado and was making plans to do so when God literally cut it off by giving me Brent, who is the greatest gift to me so far.
“Jesus gave me a Brent” Faithful is He that calleth you that also will do it…

One extra chromosome changed my life…

What I believe happened, though, was God used that desire to prepare my heart for change and learning to let go of things. He uses our desires to draw us close to Him. He chips ‘us’ away until all that is left is Him. We are being confirmed to His image. A person does not typically plan to move across the country without having some kind of heart transformation. I couldn’t even be mad because it was so obvious that God cut off Colorado. He knew the only reason I would stay was to hang out with my buddy and suddenly gave me the opportunity. I learned Colorado was really MY plan to, yet again, run from my problems and pave my own way without anyone’s help. God cut off MY PLANS and used Brent to restore my heart. I learned to bloom where I was planted.

This recent new desire wasn’t MY plan and suddenly came out of nowhere. I’m still praying about it, but am trusting God will lead me to the right decision.

It’s been a trying year for all of us. I used to put so much pressure when I would see or hear something thinking it was a sign from God, waiting for Him to act. I’ve learned to not seek signs. Seek Him and He will lead in where you should go. Recently, a lot of things are pointing to this change. I try not to look for “signs”, but that is what that cake picture sort of is to me. It popped up as a memory on my Facebook page and I couldn’t believe the caption I wrote three years ago appears to be for such a time as this.

“What if I fall?” “Oh, my darling, what if you fly?”
“When you’re hanging by a thread make sure it’s at the hem of His garment.”

(Also, for an update to my last acne post/nervous breakdown, I’m seeing results. Team Mustard Seed. 😉… More on that later.)

Health Journal Update: Acne (Team: Mustard Seed)

Isaiah 43

I am the Lord, your Holy One, the creator of Israel, your King.

16 Thus saith the Lord, which maketh a way in the sea, and a path in the mighty waters;

17 Which bringeth forth the chariot and horse, the army and the power; they shall lie down together, they shall not rise: they are extinct, they are quenched as tow.

18 Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.

19 Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.