I’m not even sure how to write this post.

Almost every week, I write that I lost an exceptional person in my life earlier this year. This person had been in my life since I was six years old. He was my dad’s best friend and the greatest witness for Christ I’ll probably ever know. During my life filled with highs, lows, losses, and wins, he was the constant through it all.

Sunflowers always face the sun: “The grass withereth, the flower fadeth, but the word of our God shall stand for ever…”

Losing someone important. ‘The Experience Must Come’ – Oswald Chambers

About a year ago, he got very sick, but it didn’t matter because he would be healed. He witnessed miracles, prayed for people to be healed, and had more faith than anyone I’d ever seen in my life. His healing was a no brainer. It wasn’t until he actually died that I believed he really would. He was physically declining, but that didn’t matter because God could do anything, and there was nothing too dire or drastic for Him to turn around.

Even after he died, I thought, “Well, there was Lazarus…”.

It did not happen.

He was not raised from the dead.

He did not wake up from his “sleep”.

Many factors tied to his death, causing this situation to be the HARDEST thing I’ve been through so far. I have experienced losses before, but he was there through all the trials and hardships in my life. He was always there to lend an encouraging word and faithful saying. When I needed to talk to him the most, he wasn’t there.

The year before he died, my dad and I visited him in Colorado. Before we left New Orleans, we spoke on the phone, and I told him, “I’m going to see a miracle.”

It came out of nowhere.

I couldn’t believe I said it, but I believed it fully. I thought God told me I’d see a miracle, and he would be healed.

This did not occur, and it shook me down to the core. I questioned everything. I got angry. I got confused. I didn’t understand. 

In June, my friend, who was told would never have a baby, called me and sent an ultrasound picture. You can read more about that story here The Dr. said <1%… but, God…. I cannot help but cry tears of joy when I think of her. She is due next month in December.

A true miracle.

In October, after four years of not having a vehicle (and after having the biggest meltdown about God forgetting me), He surprised me with a car. You can read about that here:

“Every good and perfect gift comes from above…” after 4 years God gave me a car.

To add to the craziness of this year, I also let go of someone I’d prayed for a miraculous Damascus experience for years.

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In the background of my life for the last six years was another person I prayed for. I didn’t obsess over it but would pray for their eyes to be opened. This person was straight out of Romans 1. No matter what you told them, it would go right over their head. They worshipped the creature more than the Creator, looking for signs and “spirit animals”. They searched high and low in everything except Jesus. A few months ago they started reading the Bible. I thought it could be another intellectual search.

This past Friday, we talked for a couple of hours. They started the conversation by telling me in a whisper they don’t practice yoga anymore or do/read a lot of things they used to.

I started tearing up and hesitantly said, “Do you have any idea how many people have prayed for you? Do you have any idea?!”.

They started crying, and we hugged.

God is doing a number on her so please keep praying for her.

As intense as I am, I don’t talk to her much about the Bible. I know it is God shutting my mouth, but they will ask questions now and then.

I mentioned how I thought God told me I would see a miracle and that my friend dying this year really messed me up, thinking his healing was the miracle. I explained how a few months later, our mutual friend told me she was pregnant, and now I got to witness what was happening with her. It’s been amazing to see and as our mutual friend has said, “It is beautiful to watch how God has wooed her.”

When my friend died in April I was so angry with God, and she would ask me questions about the bible. I bluntly answered them, but God knew.

Friday was such a blessed, long-awaited day.

The past six years have been a whirlwind. This year alone has been filled with ups, downs, losses, blessings, and growth.

God has never changed and as He promises has never left. He’s the God of miracles, signs, and wonders.

This new convert told me, “You hit the nail on the head. Nothing compares to it.”

“Then drew near unto him all the publicans and sinners for to hear him. And the Pharisees and scribes murmured, saying, This man receiveth sinners, and eateth with them.

And he spake this parable unto them, saying, What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it? And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost. I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.

Either what woman having ten pieces of silver, if she lose one piece, doth not light a candle, and sweep the house, and seek diligently till she find it? And when she hath found it, she calleth her friends and her neighbours together, saying, Rejoice with me; for I have found the piece which I had lost. Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.” – Luke 15:1-10

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