My last day of school was today, so it is Thursday night at 10 PM and I do not have to be in bed!!

This Sunday, I am flying to Texas to drive twenty hours across the country to help my cousin move to Washington. Remember when I pretended I was moving there as well and bought a snowsuit?

It is crazy how God grants us our desires, and I am excited for the opportunity to take a road trip across the country, but I also feel like He is saying, “How bad do you want it?”. My cousin, her two kids, the dog, and I will make plenty of memories with lots of close bonding time. We plan to stop at the National Parks along the way and make it fun, for which I am ECSTATIC. I’m trying to keep this post to the point and am sure there will be lots of material to work with for blogging/pouring my heart out when I get home.

One of the things I am doing is putting together a music playlist. Most of it is the playlist I have for my buddy Brent, which includes George Strait, Kenny Rogers, John Denver, Dolly Parton, to name a few. But, no road trip is complete without Whitney Houston’s “Wanna Dance with Somebody” and “How will I know”.

Every time I hear both of Whitney’s songs, I simultaneously want to dance and yell at her, but that does not stop me from getting caught up in the beat.

Let me share some of the lyrics.

There’s a boy I know, he’s the one I dream of
Looks into my eyes, takes me to the clouds above
Ooh I lose control, can’t seem to get enough
When I wake from dreaming, tell me is it really love

How will I know
(Don’t trust your feelings)
How will I know
How will I know
(Love can be deceiving)
How will I know

How will I know if he really loves me
I say a prayer with every heart beat
I fall in love whenever we meet
I’m asking you ’cause you know about these things

How will I know if he’s thinking of me
I try to phone but I’m too shy (can’t speak)
Falling in love is so bitter sweet
This love is strong why do I feel weak

E V E R Y time I hear it, I cannot stop thinking to myself, “Girl! If you have to question how you will know he loves you, then HE AIN’T THE ONE”. Could it simply be her daydreaming like girls do and hoping he noticed her? Yes. Does he even know she’s alive because she keeps all of this in her head? Big possibility.

But, the way the world views love makes me have doubts about that theory because the world lives on feelings. So, this post is about that side of the song instead of her imagination because civilization in insane. This post is choosing to argue the other side.

‘How will I know’.. don’t trust your feelings.

She got that part right. Don’t trust your feelings for they ebb and flow, and being a woman can vouch for the accuracy of pleading insanity.

But, this is the way the world looks at love. We settle for attention instead of respect. We settle for someone who plays games with us and talks to us at their convenience instead of making time to prove they want to get to know the real you. We settle for what is in front of us instead of God’s best because we are tired of waiting. We get ourselves in these situations because we are desperate for someone to love us.

“How will I know if he really loves me?”

Well, Whitney, if you have to ask, walk away. If you have to question, then let him go. Does ‘Dude’ love Jesus? Because if he doesn’t love Jesus then he can’t love you.

If he doesn’t have Jesus, then the ‘love’ you think he has is superficial and selfish. If you have to wonder if he loves you or thinks about you, then you need to wait for the person who removes all doubt. Life is way too short for all that mess. The problem is that we look for temporary pleasures instead of getting our worth from the one true God, so we allow ourselves to confuse lust with love. Lust is trusting your feelings and passing out at the sight of them (ask me how i know). Love is not a fleeting feeling, but is a verb. You cannot know what love is until you have met Jesus, the Creator of it.

I know, you’re probably thinking, “Why are you adding this to your playlist if it’s a secular song, and every time you hear it, you’re going to go into a fit of rage and start yelling at the person next to you while you’re both dancing?”

I don’t have a good answer for that, except it’s fun and ‘always be ready to give a reason for the hope that is in you.’ ha!

I won’t get into ‘Wanna Dance with Somebody’, but “Girl, stop being so desperate.”

This is the same cousin God used to restore my heart and cut off my solo trip to Montana a few years ago. I said I did not need anybody, yet suddenly needed a friend. God blocked my trip to Montana and sent me to her house instead, which completely baffled her and her husband. How do you explain “God told me to come here?”… so funny. And again when God ruined our “big trip” plans and we had a short, packed road trip instead. I’ve grown a lot since those posts were written, and it’s really something wonderful to think about.

Do you notice a theme? God healed my heart and restored close relationships.
That’s how I know someone really loves me. 🙂

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“Ain’t no party like an introvert party ’cause an introvert party don’t start…”

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